Bad Dreams.....

last night was a tough night. a friend's ex passed away, she had a transplant about a yr ago and she just gave up. i guess because of that i had a horrible dream. i had a dream i was in the hospital and it was for a tune up. then i wake up and i have these chest tubes and people are telling me i'm doing great with my new lungs. i freaked out, it was so weird cause i was floating on top of my body looking at myself. i was so mad, i didnt want a transplant like that. so i woke up all scared, and now i feel like a sinus cold is coming on. blah. this yr has been tough for cfers, alot of us have passed on. i hope this stops by the summer time. it's such a sad time. :(