Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Adult situation, read at own risk.

Transvaginal Ultrasound before abortion bill: This is a bill being passed in virginia. I think this bill is just horrible. why? well i had one done many yrs ago when i was 19 and i had an unplanned pregnancy. I had the to make the horrible choice to terminate the pregnancy. I was dating someone with a drug problem and was abusive. I also have my CF which at the time my pfts were up in the 90's which i dont think would have been a problem to carry the pregnancy. This procedure was the hardest thing i've ever gone through. First off, the doctor who did it didn't want to do it but because he knew about my cf condition and the insurance would cover it he went along with it. before the procedure he gave me a Transvaginal Ultrasound and this was my first time at a gyn and i didnt know what this thing was going to do. All of the sudden this thing is in my vagina and i look up on the screen to see this beautiful fetus i was going to destroy. Everyday of my life i think about what i did and how bad i feel now. I'm 34, single, no kids and just the thought that another woman would have to have this procedure done before they make their choice is unbelieveable. Also i had this procedure without any pain meds. The doctor only gave me motrin and i felt everything. i was totally awake and it was such a horrible experience. Please don't judge me because of this. I love kids but at this time of my life i felt like a kid myself. i was 19 and so confused about life and i wasn't ready, also i wasn't even taking care of my health. One day when i go up to heaven i hope to see he or she and be a mom and ask for forgiveness. I just wanted to say that people who have abortions aren't women who dont care, they do care and they are doing what they think is right. I dont regret what i did but i wish i didnt have to see that image on the ultrasound. it will haunt me forever.