Just some Ramblings......

I was never the girl who was part of a group. I always wanted to be though. I tried so hard back in middle school and high school but was always pushed to the side. Sometimes i still fell that way. I have amazing friends in miami but now that i live up here in spring hill i've been trying to connect with people around here but i feel like i'm getting the cold shoulder. In these times of social networking people become close to the point that they say they love each other and i respect that but is it true? I've never been a girly girl, i hate the phone and i hate talking online through webcam. Maybe i don't put myself out enough? but i do and maybe i come off too strong? ehhh, whatever wondering about this kind of stuff can make a person go crazy. Also i feel like people talk behind your back and you get outstead by everyone. If i have an opinion that's different from everyone i feel like it's a bad thing to tell. I miss my miami friends more than ever. I guess hispanic people do talk shit about their friends but it's like roasting them, it's all in fun. Others take it so seriously. Thank god my bestfriend will be up here tomorrow. we are going to do some fun things like waterpark and busch gardens. yay!! Also i don't love pink nor hearts or other girly things. i'm not super excited when i see rainbows or a hello kitty purse. I'm just an individual. It's kinda hard to read things and believe them. especially when i work my butt off at something and don't get the same results and when i question it, it gets a negative reaction. i'm sorry but somethings sound like B.S. Whatever i think i might have to clean house real soon cause i'm not liking certain things. ok, back to my loner ways, which i rock at and i love!! :)