Monday, May 25, 2009
going to hawaii!
well it's tuesday in the early morning and i'm freaking out. i cant believe in 3 days i'll be in hawaii. i'm so freaking scared of honestly everything and anything that can go wrong. the plane, the ship, the hotel. i'm a worrier by trade. i always expect the worst and pray for the best. i guess it's my cf way of thinking. it's really hard for me to be positive sometimes. i will have fun no matter what. i'm a bit concerned cause i've been a little sob but i think it's cause i'm ovulating and i've been doing these long walks on a full stomach. w/e my digital pft machine says i'm fine and i'm coughing up like crazy when i feel anything junkie in my lungs. my mom is all concerned but i try to ease her thoughts and tell her it's my breathing excersies, which it is. i know i'm not anywhere as bad as i was last year health wise. well all is the same on every other aspect. i'm off to hawaii on friday. :)