i disappoint myself

yep, i've done something bad. i emailed the ex on fri. or thurs. dont recall the day. well he hasnt written back to me. that's probably a good sign. i let my best friend read it and she said it was actually great. didnt sound horrible at all. just one person updating another one and hoping they are ok. so i hope that's how he sees it as well. puke, i cant believe i did that. fuck!